Formerly Babyfruit: The Miscarriage Diaries about miscarriage blogging, miscarriage advice, celebrity miscarriage and other miscarrying obsessions. Throw in pregnancy, and severe post partum depression. Now juggling life as a 40-something mom of a 6-year-old.
1st hCG levels were 209.
2nd hCG levels were 681 - more than double which looked great.
3rd hCG levels were 956 - less than double. Bad.
But of course, all sorts of excuses are being given:
1. This was done at a different lab (because of my travels)
so there could be a discrepancy from that.
2. Since it almost tripled the 2nd time, sometimes the 3rd
time doesn't quite double.
Yeah, yeah, bullshit, fucking bullshit.
My symptoms are going away. No queasy feeling.
No sore breasts. A little cramping started this morning.
No bleeding but it is just a matter of time.
What is wrong with me? I am incredibly healthy and
eat really well. We are both incredibly healthy. We're
taking our vitamins. I'm taking baby aspirin. I'm getting
acupuncture. I was thinking positive thoughts and talking
to my uterus. This is insane. There is no logical explanation.
Yes, I'm old, but I'm not ancient. The parts still work.