baby-envy

I'm having terrible thoughts now as I go to
the supermarket or Wal-Mart or downtown.
I'm looking at pregnant women with seething
envy.

And even worse, thoughts enter my mind like:
"How come that fat woman has a baby?"
"How come ugly people are having babies?"

This cannot be good. This cannot be proper.
This cannot be politically correct.

Before, I was just pissed off that drug addicts
were having babies, babies that they did not
want, that were sick from their mothers' drug
taking. And here I'm healthy, exercise, eat
organic and have cut out my vices - wine,
caffeine, beer - and I'm left with nothing.

Pisses me off.

Comments

[Erin]

I'm right there with you. Sometimes I get angry just looking at everyday people because I say to myself "THEY probably have children at home!" How psycho is that?!?!
Erin

[Lexi]

OMG! I thought I was the only one!!! I started off w/the drug addicts, then moved on to young girls then slowly worked my way up the social ladder to anyone who I feel is too unattractive or stupid to reproduce. Not something I'm proud of but it's nice to know I'm not the only one!

I guess that's just our way to cope.