Okay, just to keep all the dates straight
in my mind so I know what my body has
done in the last year or so...
10/03/03 - started to miscarry Pregnancy #1
at around 9 weeks (knew something
was wrong a few weeks before)
2/17/04 - hCG falling
2/24/04 - miscarry Pregnancy #2
about week 7
11/14/04 - hCG levels not good
11/18/04 - miscarry Pregnancy #3
about week 7
The more I look at the pattern, the more I think
there could be something to the theory one of
my acupuncturists had - that I was miscarrying
around the same timeframe that I had an
abortion (in 1993) - the 7th week.
Freaky, isn't it?
I still haven't created my 3 altars as suggested
by the ayurvedic specialist. The grief one is
supposed to be outside and I'm currently living
in my RV at a campground and there is a ton
of snow all around. Not exactly conducive to
building grief altars outside. I do have 4 Apache
Tears - one for each miscarriage and the 4th
for the abortion. But no altar.
I could build the altar for for the Way to Draw
Strength and the altar for Healing. But without
the grief altar, I don't think the positive ones
will be as effective.
What do I know? I'm the woman who can't
figure out what is wrong with her body, her
uterus.
I don't seem to have a very good track record.
But there's still a little time left. Maybe the numbers
can be improved.
If I can get pregnant again.
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