criminal

I feel like I'm breaking fertility laws by
drinking caffeine, but I'm back in my
coffee fix mentality. I just walked 3 miles
to get a cup of coffee - my way of justifying
the reward of java, by exerting myself
physically.

I'm in partial addiction denial by only
having coffee instead of my usual lattes,
which saves me money so I'm not feeling
the financial pinch.

Plus I also am making 1/2 decaf and 1/2
French Roast, so this is yet another way that
I appease my guilt about drinking coffee when
all of the fertility enhancing rules say to stop
drinking it.

Now, to remind me of my miserable lack of
self-denial, my already fibrocystic breasts
are turning lumpier than ever, with a huge
golf ball of an inflamed cyst resting in my
right boob. It is all my fault, I know, but I'm
in the zone, on the caffeine train to clarity.

And I do find that after a cup, albeit 1/2 and
1/2, I'm able to focus on my writing or reading
more easily. So it is good for my creativity
and cultural consumption, I reason.

Let's face it. I'm back to my sole addiction.
And loving every cup.

Comments

[The Barrenness]

Evening Primrose Oil (EPO) has anti-prostaglandin properties. It will counteract the fibrocystic thing. I've got it too. I just take the EPO at and after my ovulation until I menstruate. It gets rid of the "rocky feeling".

I tried quitting caffeine but I was just so damn unpleasant. I'd rather take the EPO. It helps with ezcema too.

[aliza]

The evening primrose oil is working, even when
I splurge on the caffeine. Thank you thank you!
The golf ball is now a big marble - manageable.
The bruising is fading.