babyfruit: the (mis)adventures of mommyhood: next day

November 2015

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Finally back home. last interview was cancelled but
I didn't get the email until I showed up this afternoon.

But back to yesterday. now that I have my brain
back, I find the entire incident now seems distant
and even fuzzy but all the interviews are clear.

After the "mall incident," we drove directly to the last
interview of the day - Meredith, who has had 6
miscarriages and is currently pregnant and
carrying well after treatment from a reproductive
immunologist. Another compelling interview and
also another husband willing to be interviewed.

I didn't let her know I had just miscarried half
hour before we arrived, and I went about the
shoot although did forget some important settings
on the camera so the color is off on her interview.
I'm hoping a good editor can fix the colors with
some kind of filter. Something to worry about
later. But the quality of the interview was excellent.

Overall, I think the 4 interviews will be sufficient
to put together a sample tape to submit to
potential funders. This is going to be a powerful
film, if I do say so myself.

Today, we drove to Apothecary Tincutura per Dina's recommendation (one of the women
I interviewed). The woman-owned and run store
specializes in women's natural health. I told the
girl behind the counter that I had just miscarried,
and after asking a series of questions, she put
together a nice herbal tea for me made with
raspberry leaf, cinnamon, hibiscus and other herbs.
Also bought some lavender soap and candles
and a natural pregnancy book that has a
helpful section on miscarriage (herbs, remedies).

Then drove to the last interview but she wasn't
home. Finally got online and saw an email saying
she could not make it. So we drove home earlier
than planned. Michell drove the entire day until
I dropped her off.

Right now, I'm just drained. Not the kind of
fuzzy brain drain that I had yesterday - just a
deep down energy drain from my body. I feel
the wound on the left side of my uterus where
the implantation had occurred and is now raw
and empty. I feel a little like I've been kicked
in the stomach but I've gotten back up and
am still going.

But actually, I'm going to lay down now and
stay mostly in bed for the next few days to heal.
Will do some writing, a little blogging, some
reading, some TV, anything that allows me to
relax and recline.

And I'll be drinking tea - and lots of it.

Thanks to everyone for posts and emails. One of
the women I interviewed - Ashley - really
emphasized how blogging has helped her
through her own miscarriages. I think many
of us are in the same place.

Let's hear it for blogging - about miscarriage,
pregnancy, motherhood or just LIFE!