upside the head

just when I think I'm healed - Hallelujah! - my
uterus slaps me upside the head to let me know
that "no, this healing thing takes time, so get
back to bed and stop pretending you're normal."

started bleeding again - not red, not a lot, actually
pretty dark - brownish black - but I do recall this
happening before so since there is not major
pain (just a left side twinge - also felt this before),
I'm not alarmed.

so will continue to lounge like a lazyass for most
of this week, get another acupuncture treatment
on Wednesday, and generally take it easy.

I heard about a woman psychologist in Ft. Collins
who specializes in reproductive issues. I haven't
seen a shrink since my 20s but it might be worth
checking out - just to make sure my head is
screwed on right after 4 miscarriages.

Anyone else ever see a therapist about their
miscarriages?

Comments

[Frances]

Hi,

I saw a therapist after my miscarriages, a psychologist that specializes in pregnancy loss and bereavement. I found (and continue to find her) to be very helpful with dealing with the sadness, the anger, the frustration, and being terrified to try again. The sessions brought up issues surrounding the losses, such as my role within my family, with my husband, with friends, my self image, etc. I just found it a great help to have an impartial party to talk to....

[aliza/babyfruit]

thank you so much for your input on this. I'm thinking of call her tomorrow morning and maybe see her before leaving for Alaska. No matter how logical and strong I try to be, there is something right under the surface.

[Ashley]

Hey there,
Oh, you are so amazing and strong. I wish we could have spent more time together. Yes, I saw someone for like two weeks and found that blogging was cheaper and way more fulfilling. But then, I have only had two. After four, I am not sure what my sanity level would be. And, it never hurts to try it out. Gage it if you will. If you ever need to talk, and I really mean it, please call. You have been on my mind and in my thoughts. I really, really value what you are doing and am here to support you and the production in any way I can. Hang in there... as much as possible.